Someone I Love.

As you can tell, I haven't wrote anything in a while. The reason is that someone I care for deeply is dying. I've tried to spend as much time with her as I can, so I haven't had to time to get my thoughts in order and write them down. She's a very important person in my life. She's always been there for me when I needed her, so the least I can do is sit by her side as goes this last stage in life. This has been extremely difficult for me. I've lost loved one in the past, but I hadn't completely lost faith then. I always thought that I would see them in a next life, whatever that life would be. I don't believe in the supernatural world now, so this time is extremely hard for me. She's one of the strongest women I know. She never took any smack, she always stood her ground, and she always treated me as an equal. Even though her mind is fading, her wit is still in full stride. She's one of the kindest people I've ever met. I have always tried to be like her. She'd give you the shirt off her back, then invite you to dinner. She never turned away someone in need. She's always had a loving heart and kind hand. It's sad to think that very soon she will no longer be with me. It hurts to know that there's nothing I can do for her. It's hard to see the one of the strongest women I know loose her motor functions. It breaks my heart when she tries, but can't get her words out. I'm lucky though, I'm not going through this alone. I have a wonderful husband that's standing by me, helping me through this. I have family that's willing to answer my phone calls, no matter what time of night it is. My special thanks goes out to my cousin/aunt, Tiffany. (Hope she doesn't mind me using her name on here.) She's been by my side with her and helped me understand just what's going on. If it wasn't for her, I don't think I could manage this. She's not the only one that's been there for me, she's just the one that's been there when I've lost control of my emotions and helped push me back to where I need to be. I know I have to be strong now, and I couldn't do it without my family. I know some atheists that their families have disowned them for their atheism, and I'm so glad that my family isn't that way. I'm so thankful that they love me without requiring me to believe as they do. My family is truly one of the good ones. I'm thankful that they understand how hard this is on me and try to be there for me to help me through this. I'm glad that my husband is willing to let me be her while she's still with me. I'm thankful that he's letting me deal with this the only way I know how. I can't imagine how hard it is for others like me that don't have the support of their family.